Reorganizing

I am struggling with being in this country each day. Because I've grown so jaded on this place, I've decided to change that around.
I'm about to sign a new contract for another year, and it leaves me feeling a bit unsettled, confused, and a tiny bit sad. This is SO not good. I want to make myself take full advantage of what drew me to the culture and being here in the first place, because I really don't want to leave for good with a bad taste in my mouth. This is kind of like a new year's resolution I am going to follow through. I am going to take each week and embrace the changes that come with time, along with the little quirks and uncomfortable moments that make living here so unique. Otherwise, I'll end up even more bitter than I already am, and I don't want that to happen. I want to leave here and miss it. I want to tell people about the great things they can do here, and not scare them away like I did when I went home a few weeks ago. As long as I take it one day at a time, and make a conscious effort to be happier in my everyday life here, I think everything will work out.