The past several days have been stressful, to say the least. There is some stuff going on that has thrown a monkey wrench into our plans as far as the next several months, and although I won't talk about it (yet!), I will say that it has made Steve and I reevaluate our future. There's nothing wrong with the pregnancy, first of all! Everything is okay.
But as far as recent events, you could say our eyes have been opened even more so to God's will. There was a plan there all along, and we kept trying to push back against things that were happening. We thought at first that it was terrible luck, and we were stressing out about things that we had no control over. We felt that people were being spiteful for no reason (which is still the case, somewhat), and things were happening that were screwing with our plans--which we had made months in advance. We had everything under control, and in the blink of an eye, everything was turned upside down.
In the past couple of days, we have had to sit and rethink our plans. We realized that all of this animosity we felt towards the people involved and the situation overall was part of the plan that was meant to be. We were meant to go through this and rethink our priorities once again. We realized that even the best-made plans can be "ruined," and it made us realize that we can never really be prepared for anything that can happen. Of course, we can make plans, but this time, we know that any plans we make can change incredibly fast and there is nothing we can do about that. So we can't wholly depend on those plans. They are not set in stone.
For the most part, we have made peace with the situation. We are looking forward to this new plan we have made, and we have prepared ourselves for the possibility of this new plan not working out how we want. And this time, we are okay with that. That's the point of life. In order to grow and mature, you need to go through obstacles and work to come out on top. You need to realize that things may not work out how you wanted or planned for them to, and you need to be okay with that. You also need to have a backup plan. You can't "wing it," since that's when you fail.
This experience has also made us thankful for what we have. We have a good life already, but as with anyone, there were times when we didn't recognize that fact. We would complain about this and that, and how our situation wasn't as good as the next person's. In reality, we have an amazing life. We have amazing family and friends, which in turn gives us an amazing support system. Just yesterday, we realized that we have so MANY people who care about us and pray for us, and we don't really consider how much these people think about us.
We are also thankful for the options we have. There are people who can't do what we are planning on doing (more on that in a couple of weeks), because they don't have the ability to. This doesn't mean that they are stuck where they are, it just means they have to work that much harder to get those options. We have it pretty easy (for the most part), and we don't stop to think about that fact as often as we should.
It's also kind of funny that I say that, since the name of this blog is The Grass is Greene-er! Really? I couldn't look at that and have my eyes opened that way? Of course the grass is greener! We can always improve our lives! But does that mean that the other side is really all it's cracked up to be? Not really. Even in my situation, others can look at my husband and I and think, "Wow, they have EVERYTHING. They have such an easy life, they do this, they do that, etc." But if they were in our shoes, they would think otherwise. That isn't to say our life isn't great, but it also hasn't been easy. Especially with recent events. There was a lot of stress, many tears have been shed, and we have had to basically restructure part of our lives. But that's what life is about. You pick up the pieces and keep on moving.
It's also a bit significant that everything is happening just in time for the new year. We are looking at just switching over and being positive, and embracing January first--not only as the start of a new year, but as the start of our new lives (I mean, hello, we are welcoming a new member of our family in a little over a month!). And again, I will clarify a lot of this in a couple of weeks.
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