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Wednesday, September 14, 2011

I Just Can't Win...

Leave me alone!
This morning, I ran into one of the teachers I worked with when I was at RT, and she asked the usual questions about my pregnancy. Then she goes, "But you're still slim..." with a questioning look on her face. To me, it was obvious that she was either asking if I was on a diet, or she was curious as to why I hadn't been gaining much weight. This bothers me so much!
 First of all, any of my weight gain or lack of it is MY business. I'm already pretty stressed because I've actually been TRYING to gain weight and I can't. So when someone makes it their business to find out about my weight, it stresses me out even more. Trust me, I am NOT on any sort of diet or even a workout plan. I stopped exercising a week before I found out I was pregnant (because of a slight back injury and I was taking a break), and I try to go on walks sometimes. But it's hard because my hip joints and lower back hurt so bad, I can't walk very for very long without stopping. I've gotten to where I have been actively trying to ignore my weight and trying to eat as much as I can--even when I'm not hungry!
 Second, just because I haven't ballooned like other pregnant women doesn't mean anything. Everyone has different bodies, and as long as my baby is healthy and growing like he's supposed to, I shouldn't worry. When I wasn't pregnant, it was all about being skinny. Now, I apparently have to be 200 pounds. Yes, the doctor told me that at this point, because I haven't gained much weight, to up my meal intake to four meals a day and to have several snacks in between. So that's what I've been trying to do. So thank you very much, but the only people I trust as far as my body and my baby are my doctor, Steve, and myself. I shouldn't have to be stressed just because of your perception of how I should treat my body.
So, yeah. MY body. MY baby. MY business.
Just really needed to get that off my chest.

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